What do you think about in your quiet moments?
In my quiet moments when Quinn is gone and the kids are in bed and the TV is off, I think of the same thing, over and over. Like a broken record. I try and think about other things, but it always comes back to the same thoughts. I keep repeating in my head the thoughts of struggles past, my previous life, my childhood. I can't shake the spiteful words from people I love aimed directly to hurt other people I love. Shot at one another as if words could piece their hearts. And they can, and they did. Only it's as if their sights we mis-aligned and hit me. I'm not sure that they ever made it to their true targets, but hitting innocent by-standers on the way. As if shooting a bear would give you venison.
If I am ever to heal these wounds, forgiveness has to come into my heart. Only through the Atonement of Jesus Christ can true healing occur. I know this. I understand this principle. I have taught it to others. Somehow I must learn to apply it to myself.
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